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Not really off to a great start but that is not what matters right now. I feel like I am starting from the very bottom and I am going to have to ascend slowly and carefully. I guess I feel a little frustrated because it is that time of year again when everyone starts some enlightening diet that will carry them on the wings of a butterfly to the great scale in the sky and reveal that perfect weight they have dreamed about. You know the one you see in magazines and TV shows. Everyone is so perfect, and perfectly happy. Thing is there is no magic diet cure, pill, exercise or other rabbit to pull from a hat. Its all about reality, consistency and moderation. Sure you can starve yourself, or exercise rigorously for a few weeks. You will drop a few pounds and for some that is all they need. For others a few pounds is great but it is not going to get you beach body ready. So I sit silently at the lunch table and listen to their diet woes. Their ramblings of what they ate or didn't eat, their failures and success. I sit silently choking down my lemon dressed spinach and tuna for the third time this week. I sit silently and hate them because if I had their bodies I would be running naked in the moonlight and thanking the gods for blessing me with such a perfect package. I sit silently and try not to let on that inside I'm dying with disappointment that I have to go down this road again. I sit silently suppressing the rage and hate I have inside that I have to start over again from the bottom. I'm so far in the hole I can't see the light at the top, and in front of all these people I sit silently, because they just won't understand the journey I face. A few weeks of self restraint will not get me to my goal, it will barely make a dent in my journey. So they won't understand. They won't understand how I just have to keep focused and keep climbing slowly and surely. They won't understand that I can't even set a time limit on it. There is no end to this, not really. This isn't about a beach body, a wedding dress, or a class reunion. This is about life. My life. So I sit here quietly and remind myself to just play my own game, take my own steps and move my own mountains.
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Amen. I find that my skinny friends and family like to talk to me about how they eat what they are doing to maintain or lose so that they can both relate to me in my struggle to lose 50 pounds, and also relay some strategies that work for them to help me. I have to keep reminding myself that what I am practicing isn't self-restraint so much as learning new habits that will get me to where I want to be and keep me there. Hang in there!
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: abbadabba
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I used to stick my two cents in. Hardest thing for me is I am nurse in general practice. I know all about healthy eating and exercise. Its easy to read in a book or to apply it for a few weeks. It is hard to apply it for a lifetime. I first fell off the wagon after my hip surgery. Not really an excuse nobody told me to eat a whole pizza three times per week just because I couldn't cook. I was feeling sorry for myself. Feeding my emotions with food. This journey back isn't about what I eat but why and how much. Its about reconnecting with myself. I don't know to many people that understand that.
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: Berly1023
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For me losing weight is a mental process. I have to stay motivated to continue to lose. It helps meeting friends here on FS who will support you on your journey and to find a diet or WOE that works for you and you can live with and not just suffer through it. Although most of the people who encourage me and offer support follow a different diet plan they really, really support me. And I get some good ideas for meals. Good luck on your journey and don't worry about what others are talking about.
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: Fritzy 22
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Thank you for posting with genuine honestly - we all struggle!
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: HCB
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I feel like I could have written that. I am so there!! I sit while my family talk about being fat and stuffing their faces with bread and pastries while I am eating a small handful of pork rinds wishing that cherry cobbler was Olympic pool sized so I could jump in and enjoy myself. Or my skinny friends saying how fat they are and how they have to cut carbs for 2 weeks to drop 5 lbs. I feel you!! I am there, sitting silently, eating pork rinds, wishing I was eating anything but pork rinds. Stay strong, my friend, its a long road to travel, but you can make it.
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: Klynn82
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Me, to myself: "Don't tell me I can't have that." "Oh, yeah, sister?" This is my first post. You do not have to eat tuna and lemon every day. The science says to eat fat, then protein, then good carbs. This has worked for me in the past. I ought to take my own advice. I'm working on it. We often skip what's most important, because we want to lose weight NOW, but if you haven't, check out Geneen Roth. Most of the time we eat, it's not because we're hungry.
I agree; it is a mental process. Listen to something encouraging. Wayne Dyer helped me, when I listened to him. :). But there's a lot of positive stuff out there.
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: GOOGLYIZE
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Maybe instead of thinking of yourself at the bottom, think of it as the beginning. The "bottom" sounds so oppressive and failure oriented. Beginnings can be exciting and full or promise. Think about the healthier you that you are creating with your changes! Focus on your own journey not your co-workers or friends. The thing you may not realize is everyone has their own reality so those you think are so lucky may be feeling exactly the same way. You may be shocked to find out that those who you think have it all are wearing a mask and miring in despair when alone.
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: ny_shelly
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Nicely Stated.....Know we are here to support each other. At least most of us ! If we can all help each other keep rowing the boat together -we will reach a destination. It may be far off in the distance, but with each stroke, swim, step we get closer and closer. Have faith, I think you can do it. Keep us posted on your journey, we can offer words of encouragement, motivation, and even conversation if needed. I wish you well.
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: wright2018
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You have to decide what YOU WANT. You have passed exams, tests, etc to become a nurse. I sure couldn't do that. Take that as a positive and realize that you wanted it and did everything in your power to achieve it. Now, you are on another test-but this one is a life test-Lot easier if you know you have the power to do it. The other people who talk, etc. are puffed up, so to speak. Make this is new WOE and get the love and support from the FS family. We do not chastise, belittle... we give support.
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: clay pot baker
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KETO? Much more than tuna and spinach! No worries (you are here) ; Much love.
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: Judyrose1997
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Don’t ever measure yourself against those so-called perfect people with their perfect diets and amazing weight loss. We are all on our own unique journey, filled with our own unique experiences, pain, joy, and emotions. You are your own unique, beautiful person, and your contribution is just as valuable as those skinny, allegedly happy people. If you’re ever feeling down, I wholeheartedly recommend that you download Meghan Trainor’s “All About the Bass.” It will definitely change your mood!!
I wish you all the best. This is an incredibly difficult journey!
10 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: Stoutchick
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Find your best way to be active. You need a buddy and here we are, every step of the way. So here we are. No excuses. Find out what makes you tick, and it will work most of the time. When it doesn't, here we are. That's my plan.
11 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: dailyfocus
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11 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: ginger dog
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I was terrified that I was destined to eat nothing but boring and bland food after my diagnoses - I love food - to cook and the social aspect that it brought. It was such a huge relief that is was about portion control and balance (and those carbs - stupid pancreas). I still tell everyone that I can eat what ever I want to - I just have to do the math and have it make sense. is that (insert whatever food item) worth it - what am I trading to have it or how much. The other part is that I am in this for the long haul for me - no one else has a stake in this but me. If I don't want to die - or worse - then I need to make the change regardless of anyone else. In a way I am really grateful that I was presented with the opportunity to get back on track, so many people don't get a second chance. I applaud you on your open and honest statement - and I wish you all the best on heading out on this new adventure in your life.
11 Apr 18 vom Mitglied: tahoebrun
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