TheKarenS's Notizen, 09 Feb 11

:-(
I feel totally powerless over food. I have been out of control and destructive. My co-worker was correct in his assessment of my relationships when he said i sabotage myself. What he likely didnt realize was that it's in every area of my life, not just romantic relationships.
This week i have sabotaged my diet on 3 occassions. Matthew's b-day, Super Bowl party at church, and Chinese buffet.
I have sabotaged my relationship with Denny in a surprising way by being what appeared as closer, but knowing it would actually drive a wedge between us.
I have sabotaged my time off with my son by squandering it in town, on housework, sleeping excessively, and with meaningless time (napping) with my boyfriend.
I really dislike myself for all these things. It occurrs to me as i write those words that perhaps that is why i do them - because i dislike myself.
I need help. And not just in dieting.

75,3 kg Bisher verloren: 5,0 kg.    Still to go: 11,8 kg.    Diät befolgt: Recht gut.

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1961 kcal

Fett: 102,58g | Eiw: 82,17g | Kohlh: 184,36g.   Frühstück: Butter, 100% Whole Wheat Bread, Fried Ham, Egg Omelet or Scrambled Egg, Cheddar Cheese, Orange Juice. Mittagessen: Texas Cheese Toast with Garlic, Catalina Dressing, White Sweet Corn (Kernels On Cob, Without Salt, Frozen, Drained, Cooked, Boiled), Butter, Old World Style Flavored with Meat Pasta Sauce, Cheddar Cheese, Spaghetti, Ground Beef. Abendessen: Southern Style Chicken Breast Tenderloins, Ketchup, Avocados, Green Snap Beans (Drained Solids, Canned). Snacks/Sonstiges: Tortilla Chips (White Corn). mehr...

2098 kcal

Bewegung: Tanz (Schnelle Schritte, Aerobic) - 27 Minuten, Gymnastik (Leicht) - 26 Minuten, Ruhen - 15 Stunden und 7 Minuten, Schlafen - 8 Stunden. mehr...